hmmm last week outfield this week will be in tekong till ard thursday evening then back haha final week chiong ba o.o then clr my offs and leaves 2 weeks ltr woohoo~

hmmm asked xiaogui pei me go out this coming weekend to gt presnt fr my nieces bdae cos i dunno wad to gt fr them o.o hopefully she still rmb ba hahah x.x dunno why abit sian this week dunno ba just sth inside wadever ~ gonna ord soon yesh ~ hopefully can ord peacefully ~ hahah

kkz nth much ba o.o lazy to type lmao kkz ciaoz~

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my darknesS my Light
-11:00 PM-

ytd went with frens to watch mall cop actually plaanned to watch departure bt it left only one row left front row some more -.- so end up watch mall cop o.o lmao alright it was funny bt still
kena lame at some parts overall nt a bad movie o.o haha ytd was also my niece joelle bdae haha my elder niece sms in the morning just to tell me ytd was joelle's bdae when i called she didnt wanna ans my call call jas say joelle shy -.- lmao always kick me bully me call shy haha oh well
happy 7th bdae joelle =)

then todae celebrate my bro's lunar bdae in the chinese calendar o.o lmoa my dad brough a cake haha nt bad hmmm nth much other then that i guess hahah kkz back to games and anime ciaoz~

~as long im able to be thr fr you its gd enough~

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my darknesS my Light
-8:06 PM-

woohoo soon to ord soon soon haha alrdy plan fr my offs and leaves liao one short clear ahaha
hmmm nw waiting fr application result fr my uni hopefully all goes well and i can enroll
into uni x.x

haha anyways xiaogui nt everything is that easy de ba haha maybe nxt time tell you abt it ba
bt it will nt be soon ba hahah hmmm going out tml that is if they can cfm place and time by tonight -.- if nt dun have ba lmao kkz i go slp le nt much slp during this week outfield stupid sand flies and mozzies -.-ciaoz~

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my darknesS my Light
-7:04 PM-

suddenly just thought abt sth my fren said to me just yst ba hmmm that my life is kinda filled with darkness.... hahah then that sentence back me back to then when another told me that even though we were frens fr so long hanging out tgt and stuff bt nvr really knw much abt me cos i dont open up to anyone as if thr was a wall thr in front stopping everything frm coming out wadever they knw were just the surface of wad i m... wad lies deep inside of me i also dunno or rather till nw no one has ever brought it out of me.... nvr talking abt it maybe no one really asked those qn or i have been avoiding ba.... i guess my ex knw that maybe that was why we break? cos i knw her inside out bt whenever she try stepping into my heart she was lock out too..... funny she was my gf then bt she was locked out of my heart whenever she try to knw me more than just me on the surface.... i really wish i could let her in really bt i dunno why it just shuts her out... it hurts me alot when she broke up with me although partially was cos she could nt let go her ex bt i guess i play a part too shutting her out of my heart i knw it hurted her even though she nvr tell me bt i can tell yet i didnt do anything abt it im a failure..... i thought showering her with lots of loves and attention will do it bt i guess its nt enough.... wad she really wan was someone who can let her be herself someone whom can nt only let her be happy bt someone who let her feels comfortable in his arms...... adeline... girl i miss you so bt i knw by letting you go you can be yourself you can be happy.... i will be happy too.. those happy times always bring a smile on my face whenever im down... thx fr showing me such a colorful life....

lmao kinda side tracking all ard....

hmm my darkness? i realise whenever i like someone so hard so much i wld decide to give up just like that cos i knw it was impossible or when she has someone she likes... i gave up instead just wishing as long as i can be by her side it is more than enough fr me bt knwing that.... still hurts alot inside.... im like trying to "kill" myself frm the inside.... sounds stupid i knw bt i guess this is just me..... hahah if i were given a chance i wld like to say i love you that girl right nw wadever ba.... as long as she is happy i will be happy too ba.....

somehw wadever shyt thr is or wadever darkness i have.. it will just be buried inside nvr to see light maybe just waiting fr someone to bring it out of me ba....

~walking along my darkness, its my life~

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my darknesS my Light
-11:49 PM-

another boring week back in camp best of out field raining wah thats the most sian of the sianz
well at least i gt to drive the jeep ard during the ground orientation fr the trainees if nt after i ord no more chance le hahah lmao out field use trash bag as ground sheet and slp -.- bo bian ground wet cant just dump all my stuff and slp on it like that

oh well all well ends well hahah soon soon one mth + more till ord cant wait plus my application fr my uni will be out by mid april hopefully can gt in if nt hmmm SIM or NAFA lo bt if so sem will start nxt yr liao oh well work part time lo if like that till then

today nth much ba spamming on my bro laptop cos my desktop still under repair till nxt week haha downloading some games so i play till then if nt bored lah rot at hm no one wanna go out plus those i wanna ask er abit impossible ba they have their frens as well de mah hahahah see im gd o.o lmao

thx xiao gui fr that sms and anytime you need someone i will be here de hahah =)

kkz back to watching my anime and manga ciaoz~

~waking along my darkness, its my life~

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my darknesS my Light
-1:13 PM-

btw my com will be down fr two weeks im using my bro laptop so in case i dun blog fr some time
means hes an arse hole hahah

kk requested by xiao gui

Rules:
1. Answer the questions as honestly as possible.
2. Post this as "Did that happen to you?".
3. Tag 10 friends. *(eh dun knw who gt blog plus nvr linked them so ah well o.o)
4. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
5. Have fun!!!

1. What do you do if you are in the bathroom with a beetle flying around?
use water spray at it and see wad happens to it o.o evil i knw -.-

2. What do you do if you hear a song you like playing on the radio when you are all alone in the room?
sing along with it softly...

3. You want to speak to your crush badly. What is your pick up line? (Yes. both boys AND girls have pick up lines)
erm... hi.. how are you lately?

4. What do you do if all your friends hate a particular band that you love?
dun really care they have their likings i have mine o.o its freedom o.o

5. What do you do if you trip and fall in front of many people?
act retarded stand and walk away smiling like an idiot -.-

6. You forgot to do your multiple-choice question homework (the one whereby you have to choose 1 out of 4 options given to you as your answer) and your class starts in 5 minutes.
heck care o.o tell my teacher i will hand in tml if nt say i frgt to do o.o wad else

7. You have bad breath and someone speaks to you. How do you react?
end it straight just carry on walking o.o

8. You just finished gym and after a shower, you drop your underpants on the wet floor. What do you do?
pick it up and hang it in the laundry to dry o.o

9. What do you do if a personality quiz says that you have a lousy personality as your result?
its a dumb quiz -.- dun believe unless i heard it frm my frens

10. Your friends gave you the worst gift you have ever received and asks: Do you like it? How do you react?
yea i do o.o

11. (Continued from question 10) What are you really thinking secretly inside?
hey receiving a gift is alrdy gd wad else do i wan

12. A hot guy/girl keeps looking at you while you are on the bus. What are you secretly thinking inside?
you gt to be jking she must be staring at another guy behind me just go to slp x.x

long quiz no? -.- hahaha

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my darknesS my Light
-5:29 PM-

sianz ytd sat duty kaoz well at least i gt to take off on monday till wed
rotting at hm ba -.- nth much happen just that friday went chasing after a snake trying to catch it -.- fr wad ? to show the trainees hw to skin a live snake bt too bad snake too small and its
a norm tree snake o.o fr those who didnt knw might have though it was a poisonous snake
cos of its close to shape like triangle head and rather shiny luminous skin

did you knw that fr black or dull colour snakes the duller the darker its colour the more poisonous it is? and fr green snakes the more brighter the more luminous its green is its more
poisonous o.o lmao

hmmm BORED !!! wadever i think i go slp le ba nth to do -.- ciaoz~

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my darknesS my Light
-3:21 PM-